Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Band-Aid or Tourniquet?

I think it's pretty obvious that I'm depressed. I've taken those online quizzes and they're all, yep -- you're depressed. I'm treating my depression with red wine, but this leads to the hairy eyeball from Spoose.

There is a lot of stress in my life these days, both from work and from household stuff. I don't have time to process the stress, so I've been carrying it around with me wherever it fits -- pockets, handbag, that empty space where my brain used to live. I'm one of these people that needs some quiet downtime to maintain mental health. I'd be a lot happier if I had a minute to ride my bike or read a book/magazine or just lie there looking at the ceiling.

Thing is, I'm not likely to get that time. I've been grabbing it here and there, but usually at the expense of sleeping. This is not going well as an overall strategy.

So. Since the "real" cure for my depression is not available, should I go on meds? It feels like cheating, since I know what work I need to do to get better, but I also know I won't have that opportunity. And I guess should do something to be a more pleasant person to be around.

Is Prozac more socially acceptable than a drinking problem? I kinda see them as the same thing, but one doesn't require more meetings (with a therapist) or a prescription. I guess if you've been diagnosed with a "condition" and have a legal medicine, it's more legit than being a sloppy wino. Meh.

Can you get a prescription for more sleep and people to leave you alone once in a while? I want a referral to that doctor.

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